Clarification

New Years Resolutions

I am thinking of them as the year goes by.

Watch what I say.

Sometimes the most absolutely horrible things happen to me. Like when I can’t find my glasses after I take my contacts out. Or when my highlighter runs out of ink while I am reading. Or when I sneeze and then my throat itches.

And I usually respond with one of the following - “I hate my life.” “I want to die.” “My life sucks I want to die.” “Everything is stupid I want to jump off a bridge.”

My new years resolution is to actually think before I say these words, and then not say them. And then give myself a literal slap in the face for thinking of saying them.

Because….seriously? I hate the fact that in this little world we’re in, the connotation of the word ‘death’ is so much lighter than it should be. We joke about it all the time, which just goes to show how ignorant, oblivious, and callous we all are when it comes to such a serious matter. Because really - it’s not to be taken lightly. At all.

Well, I’m really just talking to myself right now, because I’m the only person that I know who always talks like this. Hurray for 2012 - biting my tongue.