February 2012
6 posts
“It is the curse of humanity that it learns to tolerate even the most horrible...”
– Rudolf Virchow
It’s because we’re wrapped up in our own horrible situations such as studying, tedious group projects, and the slightest bit of discomfort.
Tuesday February 7th
So many people have been asking me “How are you?” that I think I’m going to address that.
A few weeks ago I was still at home.
When I’m at home, I feel safe. I don’t feel like I’m being attacked. All the questions that I have during the school year are answered and I feel comforted by the community around me. If I had to name one of the places I call home, I...
“…Each person has been assigned a station or calling from the Lord; this...”
– Gordon T. Smith - Courage and Calling
When there is time, I would like to have a discussion about this with someone.
Edit:// By posting this quote, I am not saying that it defines my life at the moment. My goodness.
Do friendships have seasons?
Something I’ve been thinking about
January 2012
9 posts
New Years Resolutions
I am thinking of them as the year goes by.
Watch what I say.
Sometimes the most absolutely horrible things happen to me. Like when I can’t find my glasses after I take my contacts out. Or when my highlighter runs out of ink while I am reading. Or when I sneeze and then my throat itches.
And I usually respond with one of the following - “I hate my life.” “I want to...
First, do no harm
[note – the thoughts to follow are ehhh]
The human condition is like a car wreck. It’s horrifying and tragic but at the same time mesmerizing and riveting – there’s something in us that can’t look away.
Influencing my thoughts are as follows: The Fault in Our Stars by John Green, and There’s a Certain Slant of Light by Emily Dickinson, and Mark 8.
One of the characters in The Fault in Our Stars...
“For I determined to know nothing among you except Jesus Christ, and Him...”
– 1 Corinthians 2:2
The focus.
Too many words
Word that have crossed my mind these past few weeks: Trees. Fast Car. Wintermester. Longboarding. Shepherdess. Death. Compassion. Yoga. Muffins. Gospel. Frustrated. Questing. Guitar. Change. Toms. Prayer. Functional nihilism. Hot Chelle Rae. Wakeup call.
I can explain some of these.
Longboarding: Last winter break I learned how to ride a bike, and this break I learned how to ride a longboard. I...
the bends
dictionaryofobscuresorrows:
n. frustration that you’re not enjoying an experience as much as you should, even something you’ve worked for years to attain, which prompts you to plug in various thought combinations to try for anything more than static emotional blankness, as if your heart had been accidentally demagnetized by a surge of expectations.
used to be one of my biggest fears.
“It’s very beautiful over there”
– The last words of Thomas Edison
December 2011
10 posts
“True love will triumph in the end, which may or may not be true, but if...”
– John Green
This semester
This semester has been a battle. Not just for me, but for almost everyone I know -especially sophomores. The sad thing is, I think many of us tried to fight through it alone. All we really had to do was turn to each other and ask for prayer or encouragement and it would have been more than happily given…but even as I’m typing this I’m wondering how true that is because in my...
Finals Week
You’d think that to get between emotions that are on opposite ends of the spectrum you have to pass a middle point, but that’s not true. It’s much more common to go from one extreme emotion to its exact opposite without a moment of balance or stability. Well , maybe not always, but that’s how these past few days have been.
Happy - So many heart warming, fuzzy moments...
I FOUND IT!!! Beautiful quality.
So here’s...
Moments
I’d like to think life is a collection of moments that you put in a box so that one day you can look back and smile, laugh, maybe cry. But those moments are only snapshots, and reality marches on after that moment is captured. Life strings together those moments, and they intertwine and change and life goes on. It’s nice to look back on those snapshots though.
Sometimes I’m glad I fall short of people’s expectations because that means I never have to meet them again.
November 2011
6 posts
slipcast
dictionaryofobscuresorrows:
n. the default expression that your face automatically reverts to when idle—amused, melancholic, pissed off—which occurs when a strong emotion gets buried and forgotten in the psychological laundry of everyday life, leaving you wearing an unintentional vibe of pink or blue or gray, or in rare cases, a tie-dye of sheer madness.
Malachi and Crystal
They met in New Orleans. Fell in love, then out of love.
He moved to Austin. He calls himself a traveler, part of a subculture tribe of reckless souls freight-hopping from city to city, trying to observe and learn about the world.
She was married, divorced, her children all grown up, her job gone, looking for a different life. She came to Austin too, looking for a life where she could simply...
Beautiful
I feel guilty admitting that when I walked into the KidStuff room last Sunday morning, what brought a big smile to my face was not the children, but a book that I saw lying on the table: Max Lucado’s (kind of) new book, Tallest of Smalls.
I also feel guilty admitting that when I asked the kids if they wanted me to read it to them and they said no, I read it to them anyway. Multiple times. And...
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Thanksgiving and Cats (pt. 2)
Is everyone wondering the same thing? How did it get to be the middle of November?
364 days ago, I made a tumblr post thanking some really important people in my life.
I originally started this post to share about how I’m tired and frustrated and overwhelmed and angry and sad and I’m falling apart on the inside. And I don’t know how to tell anyone why.
Then I read my old tumblr post. I thought I...
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I’m using the few seconds I have left of tumblr time to let the world know that there is a BEAUTIFUL ENORMOUS CHRISTMAS TREE IN THE SAC AND IT HAS LIGHTS AND ORNAMENTS AND GLITTER AND SMILES AND CHRISTMAS AND GREEN AND THERRE IS CHRISTMAS EVERYWHERE AND I GOT SO EXCITED THAT I ALMOST THREW UP
October 2011
17 posts
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Well then.
Here’s how it happened:
There was an awesome late night jam session with some beautiful Kinsolving girls last night.
At 8:54 I wake up and realize my advising session is at 9
At 8:59 I am running outside in shorts, appreciating that the weather is the perfect amount of cold
At 9:06 I arrive, thinking that I have everything prepared to decide my schedule for next year
At 9:12 I discover...
Anonymous asked: What is your other tumblr for...? You haven't posted in it for a while... ><
“I have the choice of being constantly active and happy or introspectively...”
– Sylvia Plath (via tapingletters)
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WOMEN
So if you’ve talked to me about feminism before you understand that I have strong opinions about the subject that contradict each other. HAHA. :(
Fall Retreat was awesome. But now I’m writing a paper (that I just started and is due tomorrow…) and it’s about FEMINISM and the ROLE OF WOMEN IN SOCIETY etc etc etc.
I realized at Fall Retreat that I have very little to back up...
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Fears vs. Dreams
“You spend your whole life stuck in a labyrinth, thinking about how you’ll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.”
-Looking for Alaska by John Green
For the longest time, I thought this quote defined my life. Looking for Alaska is one of my favorite books. It’s brilliant,...
Inspiration
I’m usually a liar.
When I pass by people on the drag who ask me if I have spare change, I usually say ‘No, sorry’. I guess I didn’t feel like lying today.
To be completely honest, usually people asking for money freak me out. I tense up. I think I was in a happy mood today because I had just bought giant bags of candy and snacks from CVS.
After I gave the man a...
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aleeviation: 10 Days →
DO IT!!!
aleeviation:
“Lord, I need more of you
Living water, rain down on me”
-“We Are Hungry”, Passion Band
This morning, in my usual routine of not paying attention in class and randomly surfing the internet, I was browsing through the Internet looking for projects that I wanted to get involved in…
Shake the Dust
Everyone hurts, one way or another.
What I learned from the To Write Love on Her Arms meeting last Thursday - It’s okay if you don’t have a ‘story’. Not everyone has suffered from depression, anxiety, OCD, etc.
But some people have. Some people have attempted suicide, some people have had problems with cutting, drug abuse, severe depression. Some people have seen close...
September 2011
13 posts
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I need to learn Spanish
Is it normal for something to bring you joy yet make you heavy hearted at the same time?
I respect all of the teachers that I’ve had, but at the same time, I wish they had shown all of their students, including me, more love.
There was a group of girls on Monday who gave me fake names. Normally I think this would be funny (and it was certainly funny to them) but at the time it wasn’t funny at all....